Valentine's Day 2012

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Happy valentine's Day, my love! I went to the store and I really wanted to buy you a card.. But then I ran into my ex and I got depressed...I feel like you will hold it against me. Please don't hold it against me. T-T I promise that whenever we kiss on our wedding day, it will be 10X BETTER!!!

I am trying hard to be patient I hope that this valentine's day was good for you It was okay for me other than that particular moment. :/ haha.

I'm telling EVERYONE ABOUT YOU LATELY! I can't help it I mean, the kind of looks I get speak for themselves...most of the time, they look like they're disgusted or weirded out. LOL but WHY? They can't believe me when I say I love you? haha~! They so silly~

The bottom line is, I won't be perfect and You won't be perfect either. ^-^; But I want to love you in the most healthy of ways So far, I've gotten a few books to help me Love myself before I love on you sorry, but This girl has a LOT wrong with her and she needs major improvement . I think that's just the grace of God for you.

Also Can't forget to love God before ANY man That's hard for me, I don't know about you. haha~! I want to be the perfect woman of god for you as well as for myself and God. I need to gain confidence, and seize the time god has given me as a single woman for now and embrace single-ness happily .

I hope you're serious about becoming a man of The Lord too. I want you to be on the right path for God as much as I want to be on the right path for God. Let's Work Hard! The promise of you in my life is a beautiful thing, But I know you won't satisfy me like he will satisfy me You'll just be SECOND in My life, kay? I hope I will be SECOND TO YOU too. Let's work on that, kay?

It's really hard for me to dull down my feelings for you or feelings for romance at all. I'm such a romantic person deep down. XD A hopeless romantic, haha~. But I'm working hard to become all I need to be for now. We will do what God has for us when we get together. It's exciting isn't it?! haha! but then again, it kind of is like..rushing in too soon.

Our future together is only the dessert-Sure Every Kid looks forward to all the sweet tastes of dessert, the most tasty of treats after dinner, but they overlook the beautiful and masterfully prepared dinner beforehand. Their eyes are only on the dessert, and they don't even notice how good the dinner is

Well, I'm convicting myself right there. I'm a big hypocrite! ah well. at least I'm TRYING to focus on the dinner before the dessert. Kind of difficult but I'm confident that I can do it, one way or another.

Anyways, I love you and I love the God who created you more. Happy Valentine's Day. :'D Hope to hear from you soon

-alex-
February, 2012